Thoughts on Doubt and Faith
by Randy Siever
There’s a fascinating and usually overlooked blip in the highly revered Great Commission in Matthew 28. We usually quote it from verse 18 through 20. This is the primary motivational passage for Christians to do what we call “evangelism.” Here’s the part we quote, from the New International Version:
18Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
I won’t go into this much, since you’re likely already very well taught on it and I doubt I’d add much to what you already know. But here are the two preceding verses that I find incredibly intriguing…the ones we don’t normally refer to.
16Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. 17When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted.
Here’s the same two verses in The Message translation:
16-17Meanwhile, the eleven disciples were on their way to Galilee, headed for the mountain Jesus had set for their reunion. The moment they saw him they worshiped him. Some, though, held back, not sure about worship, about risking themselves totally.
I had never really noticed these two verses before, and when I did I immediately asked myself, “Some DOUBTED? Some of WHO? I want NAMES!” Verse 16 tells us who: Some of the “eleven.” That’s the original twelve disciples minus Judas Iscariot. The same guys who literally lived with Jesus for three years as his students. He taught them, he performed miracles in front of them and with them, he corrected them and sent them out to do mission work in his name. They watched him get hauled off to the monkey trial that ended in his execution by crucifixion. They huddled up, scared and depressed (Peter went back to fishing, remember?). But Jesus showed up, alive, just as he said he would. They saw the empty tomb. They were wowed by him just appearing in a locked room with them. Jesus was back.
Then for the next forty days Jesus, the resurrected Jesus, reinforced who he was to these guys (and many, many others as well) by appearing all over the place to individuals and groups as large as 500 (1 Cor. 15:3-7). And now, just before he physically ascends to heaven, he gathers his remaining key leaders for a final charge. He tells them to meet him on a mountain top, and the eleven show up for the appointment. When they get there, it says they “worshiped him,” which seems pretty appropriate given Jesus has pretty much done everything necessary to prove that he is God in the flesh. Once you’re convinced of that, worship is pretty much what happens when Jesus is right in front of you.
And then we read these three words: “…but some doubted.” How could this be? Which of these eleven were still fuzzy about Jesus? It doesn’t tell us (gracious of God, I think), but there is one guy it wasn’t, for sure…Thomas. Remember “Doubting Thomas?” He’s the guy who had the integrity to admit that the idea of a guy, any guy, coming back from the dead was crazy. He wouldn’t believe it unless he saw Jesus with his own eyes, and got to touch the wounds in his hands and side. Jesus shows up and settles the doubt for Thomas (and at that point, presumably for the rest of the eleven) by inviting him to touch his wounds. Remember Thomas’ response? He fell to his knees, crying out “My Lord, and my God.” Thomas was convinced who Jesus was in that moment, for sure. And he worshipped him on the spot.
But that was pretty early in the 40-day resurrection run. By verse 16 we’re at the end of that period. So I’m pretty sure Thomas was not one of the “some” a this point who still doubted because, well…he already crossed that bridge. What’s interesting to me is that this means that there must have been others among the eleven who doubted at the same time Thomas did. They just didn’t have the guts to admit it out loud. Thomas gets a bad rap, and ever since then, doubt has, too.
Ok, back to the story at hand. Jesus is about to give the final marching orders for the new Kingdom of God at hand here, and he’s doing it with his chosen team leaders. I find it disturbing to think that they’re not all on the same page regarding what we have historically believed was an essential doctrine of the Christian faith: Jesus is God in the flesh. This is the acid test for spirits, according to John (1 John 4:2). It’s at the core of our faith and is sort of the line in the sand when it comes to orthodoxy. God became flesh and moved into the neighborhood (John 1:14). His name was Jesus.
So how would you feel at this critical point if you were in Jesus’ shoes? I can’t imagine myself not being totally bummed. I mean, what’s a guy have to do to get a little respect here? This is the birth of the church we’re talking about. We just can’t have any fuzziness about the very nature of Christ the King here…too much is on the line. So, you guys who are doubting…have a seat. I’m going to have a little meeting with the guys who “get it” and we’ll be right back. Sheesh.
But not Jesus. Eugene Peterson, in “The Message” translation, puts verses 18-20 this way:
“Jesus, undeterred, went right ahead and gave his charge: “God authorized and commanded me to commission you: Go out and train everyone you meet, far and near, in this way of life, marking them by baptism in the threefold name: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Then instruct them in the practice of all I have commanded you. I’ll be with you as you do this, day after day after day, right up to the end of the age.”
I love that. “Jesus, undeterred, went right ahead and gave his charge:” It didn’t bother Jesus that some of his guys were doubting still. He was undeterred. He went ahead and gave the Great Commission to the whole lot of them…including the doubters. Why? If certainty about the very nature and person of Christ is not what is required to be qualified to be sent on this great mission to make disciples in all the world, what does qualify them (or anyone else) for this mission?
Here’s what I think. The clue is in verse 16. Jesus told them to meet him on the mountain…and they showed up. And because they showed up, they got charged with the massive task of making disciples of Jesus in all the world. They got the commission simply because they were asked to meet Jesus on the mountain and they were obedient. They didn’t have it all figured out, and some of them still doubted what we consider a core issue about the deity of Christ. But they showed up anyway, and Jesus commissioned them all.
If they hadn’t showed up that day…well, I don’t know what would have happened. I’m just glad they did. Because they showed up that day, a lot of stuff happened to and through them that resulted in me knowing and following Jesus today. I’ve never felt more thankful, or amazed, about that than right now.
Next week: Part Two…